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TLDR: You have to give yourself permission to suck.

I just wrote up a new blog post about the Pokemon stuff I've been doing and grappling with paralyzing art-fear:…

I'll probably post some of the pokemans around here soon!

  • Listening to: Kingdom Comes - Sara Groves
  • Reading: The Silmarillion
  • Watching: Castle, Season 4
  • Eating: Homecookin'
  • Drinking: Homedrinkin'
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flinx Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Just like you to know that your blog has helped me draw :) I like writing on my drawing pages ' Permission to suck!' THankye muchly :)
nicholaskole Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
^_^ glad to have helped at all
flinx Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Vardagaladhiel Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013   General Artist
Your blog post came right at a time when I was struggling with a good old case of art fear(I'm just very late in commenting...). I've been taking life-drawing classes for a few months now and whilst I've developed in skill, I am still frightened of the blank page and messing up. I can see that fear as being a motivating force in small healthy amounts, but it was at a level that it was taking me almost 2 hours to simply get the basic sketch (which always seemed to be riddled with proportional and position errors) of the figure down!

However last week I decided to just go for it and by the end of the 2 hours I had an almost completed drawing, and whilst I still had a few tweaks to make I felt brilliant! I felt a so much freer and more confident, and it stopped me from agonising over every detail and in the process losing sight of the actual pose, so thank you for sharing your thoughts on the issue!

Thank you♥!
SapphireGamgee Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the post! I think we all need to hear this from time to time. :hug:
ScrambledMeg Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Student
Thank you for writing that blog. ive been going through somewhat of an art crisis since starting my first year of art school, reading it helps. it reminds me that art can still be a freeing experience.
inktoad Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for this. I struggle a lot with art-fear myself, but the things you wrote in your blog have helped me get one step away from it. Never tried watercolor before tho, but the pokemons you've posted look fantastic:D
hyamei Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
actually started scribbling a few gestures in watercolor after reading this a few days ago. (baby steps too!) Turning something into a habit is always the tough part for me.:doh:
I'd really love to be good at watercolor, and it's a big challenge since I know I'm too spoiled in the digital medium. you can't fully control it and the way of forces you to think in a different
process to approach your artwork (painting from light to dark layering).

it's just sad I know the difficult part for me is actually the sketching part, I've been so used to sketching/tweaking things easily in photoshop that I feel my trad sketches are inferior.
I guess this journal is a good little reminder that I can overcome that and embrace my mistakes. so thanks! :)

I did laugh at the thought of making that inner monster uncomfortable with silly dancing :lol:
javawombat Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013   Digital Artist
Hahah, this seems crazy to me coming from someone whose style I just adore and look up to, but it seems like the ebb and flow of artistic confidence happens to everyone, and more than once in their careers. I find that as long as I force myself to just keep producing, I'll get through those occasional dips and funks - or maybe I just always feel like I have a lot of room for improvement, so I'm never too terribly surprised if I turn something out that's not amazing. I guess since I have to pay rent, I have no choice but to keep chugging. I really like your way of looking at it, though - as sort of an integral part of the art-puberty process.

Also. I TOTALLY hear you on the watercolor thing. As a medium, I adore it. I just love the texture and I wish I could make an entire graphic novel using watercolor. But I'm just not that good with it. (The director of the ill dept at AAU basically told me I was bad at it when I told him I'd like to do more. It's the truth!) Like you said - it takes planning, and even then, watercolor tends to laugh in our faces. I've been also experimenting a little by just using watercolor textures on top of my lineart and seeing where that goes.

What a journey, huh? :3
javawombat Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013   Digital Artist
Somebody at AAU also once told me that if you're having a hard time, and you're struggling, it means that's when you're learning and growing most. Growing pains! I have no idea if that's true, but it makes those crappy works of art seem productive, at least. :)
Murielle Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013
Well said.
yakkingyetis Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2013
wow i love your portfolio ! and your blog i love ! i just started tumblr a few days ago btw ahha
justvrit Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2013  Student General Artist
To read your post gave me so much things to think about... In my learning way about all art stuff the fear has always been so present and most of the time it just came to take me down..... I just give up, frustrated thinking that I don't have enough skills to keep going... But the words you said about making bad art is far better than making any, really caught my attention... After all to make mistakes, to messed it all up is the only way to really learn.... your post is so inspiring, most of the time is really difficult to think that the artist we admire can pass through this episodes too, but I guess those are occupational hazards xD
thank you so much for sharing!!
And beside, as always your art is amazing!!
AmandaMullins Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
This is funny because not even 1 day ago I talked to my friend about how sometimes to find one good idea you have to care a lot less. And when you care a lot less you get stuff out, and when you get stuff out at the very end there is something... and that's the idea you were looking for but didn't know you had.

So this was cool to read!
mlauritano Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional General Artist
It surprises me that you would ever be afraid to make art. To be honest, even what you call 'hot garbage' has life and personality that the rest of us would feel pretty psyched to have come so easily. But, of course, we all have our own battles! For my own part, fear isn't really an ingredient in the process. My struggle, as of late, is that I think an idea/illustration/project through so thoroughly in my head, that I unintentionally feel as satisfied as if I'd already made it. Just plain dumb. Similarly though, I do need to learn to fearlessly doodle, as it's something I've never really done in my life.
LaurenGreiner Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional General Artist
Reading your journals always make me feel more confident about my battles with art fear and scrounging up the courage to put pencil to paper. This is exactly what I've been going through for the past five or so months - a massive, crushing fear of art, and lacking the faith to proceed with it, even if my drawings don't turn out like I'd have them. I think we all get hung up on making the most perfect piece of art the first time we start something, and the crippling disappointment of not achieving what we'd hoped to accomplish makes us want to give up before we've really begun. But thank you for reiterating why it is so very important to keep trying and trying even if we don't like what we see when we've finished painting or drawing or sculpting or writing. I think artists get too caught up in trying to make our works perfect, and we lose sight of the beauty and joy of making art itself - just letting our thoughts explore the canvas and being swept wholeheartedly into our craft. There's such freedom in it, and as hard as it can be to embrace, we become better for it. Thanks for the pep talk, and keep being awesome! (p.s. your pokemans are great! I'm liking the new process and I hope you continue to make the best discoveries!)
MuseAmused Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
So everyone from my friends to Prof. Enjeti to the internet tells me.

Damn hard to believe it but its nice to be reminded. Thanks for putting those words out for anyone who needed 'em.
Longhair Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
I'm so glad you posted this - I have so much art anxiety myself, and it's all too easy to let myself believe that it's just me and everyone else is super confident and knows what they're doing. It's so true that you have to give yourself permission to suck, but somehow it's easier said than done (shouldn't it be easy? I mean, just scribble something on the paper! It doesn't have to be good at all! Whoops, lurking art anxiety again). Anyway, your watercolor doodles look great and are inspiring me to make some of my own!
ArtByEdyn Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Truer words were never spoken. I had a bout of that right before starting art school this week. The you don't belong here why are you here monster was rearing its ugly head. Thank you so much for the encouragement!
fox-orian Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
The cool thing is, those pokemon drawings are looking rather like official art I'd expect from Nintendo for the games. (Concept drawings they ended up using in the user manual, player guide or whatever.)

I'm not exclusively a digital artist. This is basically because it's what clients require, and it's where I get done work teh fastest. But I know it's damaged my confidence in natural media. I swear, I freeze up from drawing with pencil on paper now -- only because I know there's no Undo button, even IF I can still erase it. I'd panic if I had to water color my physical drawings -- I'd want to "save as" copies to go back to the original drawing in case I totally screw up. BUT, can't. It's something I'd love to practice more.

Actually, hmm, my printer can take cut-sheet stocks as thick as corrugated cardboard. I should print one of my drawings out on some heavy-duty watercolor paper sometime and practice that way.
Cspain Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
Those 'Mons are looking baller. Love the post and can't wait to see more! Glad you know how to toss the fear. I'ma start doodling
Axel-will-own-you Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Student Filmographer
*thinks about what was said on the blog* hmmm... I think you have just helped me out of the art-slap-to-the-face I've been having. Thank you.
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